I Need Love

What happens when cupid strikes and shoots you square in the ass?

The silver in a grey cloud shimmers with brilliance. A heightened sense of magnetism towards the person begins to surge as quickly as skepticism dwindles. All of a sudden you feel like your shoulders are being lifted, feet fluttering as sparks of affection twinkle around your eyes.

A cloak of delusion starts to wrap around your perceptions.
Her flaws are so disregarded it almost becomes invisible.
Her positive traits however, are projected almost matched to perfection.

This goes on for…oh I dunno….3 months?

THEN the poison in the arrow starts to kick in.

The infection from the sting in your ass weaves its way into your brain and you begin to detect an itch of irritancy. Dark clouds are stricken with bolts of thunderous mayhem. You fight so often the very sight of your partner infuriates you so much as to have you want to rip her face apart and feed it to the pigs. Then it rains. She cries. You’re rendered helpless with knees trembling while your heart yells out for mercy from god!

Every statement is misinterpreted.

Every action or gesture is misunderstood.

You can’t even take a piss without having her go “How could you prioritize your bladder before me? Can’t you just endure for 15 mins and help me pick out my shoes? We need to have an understanding! I need you to be present when I’m making big decisions! You never care about what I want!”

But still you’re much attached to each other. WHY?

What is it that drives us with enough endurance and motivation to tolerate or rather succumb to these undesirable aspects of being in a relationship?

With that mentioned I should ask the age old question:

WHAT IS LOVE???

As contradicting as it may sound I DO believe in love. As a matter a fact I have always adhered to my personal beliefs when it comes into question simply because I have divided it into 2 categories.

LOVE

My idea of love is simple.

Attraction, Acceptance and Gratefulness.

I’d be considered the biggest liar since Clinton if I were to tell you “I don’t go for looks”. I DO! A good 1^st impression usually springs from the person’s superficial appearance. As much as I wouldn’t mind, I don’t expect an Angelina Jolie look-alike to come waltzing through the door as I’m not exactly a Brad Pitt myself.

As long as she has a nice personality and doesn’t look like Ursula from “The Little Mermaid”- I’m cool with it. Minimal prerequisites that sparks attraction.

Acceptance and gratefulness are 2 conjunctive aspects which I believe defines the true meaning of love. She may have some negative traits and might not necessarily indulge in the same interests as you. But you learn to accept. And be grateful.

I strongly believe that being grateful is a key factor in love. One may be strong, competent and efficient enough to move on and live WITHOUT the partner as easily as they started yet CHOOSES to stay because one LOVES her for the person she is and is grateful to have that person in one’s life.

NOT because you can’t stop thinking about her!

NOT to harp on her to make oneself feel complete!

NOT because you cant live without her!

The sort of mentality above is an extreme after effect of being in a relationship for SO long, and being SO accustomed to each other that love subconsciously morphs itself into:

NEED

This is indeed a dire extreme of what love can turn into. When the person becomes a big part of your everyday routine and you feel an affinity so immense that if the person is taken away from your life, you feel a great loss. She becomes a necessity instead of a privilege. She becomes what you NEED instead of what you WANT. Then you have defeated the purpose of being in a relationship.

In conclusion, things are best done in moderation - Even the act of loving someone. One should never indulge in too much love until it turns to need. Then both parties will want to stay together for completely SELFISH reasons. Because you cant live without each other. Because living without her will leave you in a calamitous mess.

Then you didn’t really love each other in the 1^st place.

What you want may not always be what you need.

You will want to be LOVED.

Not NEEDED.

FUZZ